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2.19.2005
Nostalgia--once again.

Dear Blogdrive,

I look around and I envy the people with the perfect lives--perfect barkada, perfect family, perfect grades. Yeah, jealousy's a sin, but fuck that. This is what i feel, and jealousy's some fucked up emotion everyone passes through once in a while.

I scan the pictures all my friends post on their blogs of their barkada as a whole and all that shit and I start to think--what's happened to our pictures of that? i mean, not that our barkada's fun and all, but...there's no fucking trust. it's so annoying!!

anyway...iunno whut i'm saying...i just miss the old times...i just want them back...that's all...)=

mood: nostalgic
eargasm: boulevard vs. wonderwall

Yours Truly,
r a i i s u h (=™

Posted at 07:48 pm by panteh
are high  

2.12.2005
"Remember more than you'd like to forget."-Taking Back Sunday's This Photograph is Proof

Dear Blogdrive,

I'm pooped. Today I had my period. I woke up at 6:30 went to DOST at around 8:00 and came back at around 11:30. Then, we had lunch in Cibo and stayed in the customer's lounge. We stole tickets from the "collected-from-customers-already-pile" when the janitress wasn't looking. Haha, what a loser.

Then i saw Dero. She was with one of her lesbian friends, Jade. Oh, manners. I should've distinguished the difference by now. Jade's Bi-Sexual, not a lesbian. She, Dero, and about thirteen more others which make up their entire batch, were waiting for the others so they could head over to Dero's and practice cheerdancing for the St. Scho cheerleading thing. While her friends went to National Bookstore to buy stuff for tomorrow, we headed out to Paeng's. We were there for about ten minutes, and because we got tired of waiting for them, we decided some prank sortal ike the JKX / Girls Behaving Badly. Then i hit some part of the aircon, which fell off. I made a run for it. And so did Mariel .Then some old lolo boii goes, "Huwag kayong aalis ng ganyan! Isusumbong ko kayo!" So, marty took off as well. Then, we went to National to pick Jade and Eloisa up. We saw them come out holding...*drumroll please* a single sheet of cartolina! I was all like WTF!? They took that long to get cartolina!?

So anyway, we went to the cinemas area and marty said she didn't want to because we'd see daw the old man again. I told her there was a slim 3% chance of seeing that old geezer again. So we walked on...and guess who we saw? Yeah, you got it. The old man! So we ran all the way from the cinemas back to the old wing. Funny shit mahn, if you ask me.

My gawd. The arranged time was at 2:00 pm. What time did they come? 4:30! My gawd, they were all lesbians and bi-sexuals by the way. Only about 2% make up the straight people population in their batch. And they even had the guts to wander out on their own to by SUNGLASSES for the gawdahmned mall.

Mariel, and I lost our temper because, Dero said they had no sense of schedule, and I belived that this was the first time I ever got cranky because of my period. Because of those gender-confused, blind-eyed, and ill-minded creatures. [[bless my soul, i don't wish to take it back right now, but i don't mean it that bad.]] So, as we FINALLY gathered the eight out of about eleven of whom were attending, we decided to take off as we were wasting time. Btw, my curfew was five, because i was grounded. Anyway. We led the way to South Supermarket. When we finally got to Marty's parents, FOUR OF THEM WERE MISSING! So...we called them...they were in the cinemas! This made me want to stick my sanitary napkin up their pieholes so much more. Then, we went to pick them up. Guess what!? They were even holding drinks! My gawd, they all thought this was nothing. I wanted to beat the living and few remaining straight-gendered factors and molecules out of them.

When we finally got to Marty's we made chibog and practiced 'till about 8:30. Then, i went home. Dad wasn't mad cuz i told him i was going to be late. So, yeah...there's my wonderful day...

moOd:
eargasm: Taking Back Sunday's This Photograph is Proof [[ i love this song ]]

Yours Truly,
r a i i s u h (=™ p.s. You know, i was thinking earlier. And i realized how much i missed this:


Batch Sem with my friends...



Just the Blue Ice members...in Angel's Hills...



This was what it was like...when we all trusted each other...



In IPose...pangit mo, monica! Haha, shkiddin..
.

I just really miss the old times. Real bad.

Posted at 10:26 pm by panteh
are high  

2.11.2005
Biatch. Hayy, Stupid IP.

Dear Blogdrive,

WHUT THE FU--!?! I mean, after all we did, you just get mad at me!? I mean, I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I DID TO YOU -- I KNOW I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING WRONG, SO WHUT'S YOUR PROBLEM NOW!? YOU GODDAMN GOSSIP ABOUT EVERYONE YOU FIND A FLAW IN AND I MEAN EVERYONE. Can you believe it? Even your own best friend. I mean, yeah i thought it was pretty harmless at first, so i just laughed along. Now, i wonder what you're saying about me behind my back, just like everyone else you'd done that to.

I'm so sick of having to hear you complain and whine about every gawdahmned thing. I wanted to slap you right then. But what can I do? There's no satisfying you.

What am i doing wasting my time on this?

We had an oral quiz earlier. Poor Criscu. She helped everyone answer our questions, but...she didn't get to answer her own and flunked. I feel guilty. She is a nice person, after all.

Anyway. I'm going to DOST tomorrow to finally kick a start on that Investigatory Project of ours. Damned thing. We've only got two weeks to finish that. And we can only do that in the lab / whatever you call it in DOST. And we can only go to DOST on Saturdays. So, we only have two Saturdays left. Tomorrow and next week. Which means, we're toast. dead toast.

I'm tired. So pissed.

Yours Truly,

r a i i s u h (=™

Posted at 07:11 pm by panteh
are high  

2.9.2005
"Since you've been gone, i can breathe for the first time..."-Since You've Been Gone [[Kelly Clarkson]]

Dear Blogdrive,

Iunno what to say anymore...it's like, everything i say's pretty worthless...nobody cares, why bother letting them know...? I'm so tired of this...

Tae. I hate this.

"We mustn't dwell in the past...but it never hurts to look back once in a while..."

moOd:
eargasm: Kelly Clarkson's Since You've been Gone

Yours Truly,
r a i i s u h (=™

Posted at 06:59 pm by panteh
are high  

2.8.2005
"I'm dressed all in blue, and i'm remembering you..."

Dear Blogdrive,

I saw his crown earlier and it just brought back memories..i wish it wouldn't...it just makes me feel all bad again..i wanna get over this...i wanna get over him...it's been a gawdahmned month...)=

moOd:
eargasm: Rhett Miller's Come Around

Yours Truly,
r a i i s u h (=™

Posted at 06:23 pm by panteh
are high  

2.7.2005
Been keeping up...can i still hold on?

Dear Blogdrive,

I'm currently watching Alexander, listening to Fragma and using the computer at the same time...cool! I can multitask!...i think...ooooookay...basically, i don't know what's going on with the movie and all i'm doing is letting the music drown the sound of the movie...sooooo i suppose i'm only bent on doing this entry...üü

I'm really tired. It's a damn good thing we don't have classes tomorrow due to the parent-teacher conference / report card distribution. [[Who's going to get their cards? I'm too chicken to come after my own grades...it's prollie gonna beat the living shit out of me. haha!]] Whew! For a moment there, i thought i'd have to live through Bio again. I swear, Santiago's words just come in through one ear and out the other. Sadly, when we return to Woodrose [[screw that school mehng!]], we'd be suffering through double algebra. And the day after that, we have double bio! [[bless my soul and hopefully, it won't drift away from me cuz of boredom]]. It's cool nga eh. I don't need to go to english remedials! haha! okay, so maybe it's not such a big deal for you guys, but what the hell. it's pointless going to the library just to do SRA. it's really useless, if you ask me. Anyway. I'm looking forward to Saturday. Why? We're going to DOST once again! Haha! Then lunch at...CPK or Italianni's? Your choice na! Basta may express cash! hahaha!! =p

It's only 21:45 and already, i'm on the verge of falling asleep.

Recently, i've been so confused...why? well...let's just say...i'm hell tired of thinking about my issues with my barkada. but..yeah, we talk and all, but...it's just not the barkada you hoped it'd have been, you know? Sometimes...i envy those people who just don't give a crap about their problems and end up being so carefree that their group's just...fine...hayy...

Why am i loading you with the bullcrap you don't even care about?

I'm so tired. What am i supposed to do? I'm sick of this. I think Miel's the only one who'd understand this line...;) hayy...but you know what?

What if i took all the tears you've ever made me cry and drowned you in them?


moOd:
eargasm: ATB's Hold you

Yours Truly,
r a i i s u h (=™

Posted at 09:52 pm by panteh
are high  

2.6.2005
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Posted at 08:41 pm by panteh
are high  

It's Sundae and i'm bored. Still dead tired, too.

Dear Blogdrive,

I'm up early. It's quarter to eight--okay, it's not that early anymore, but i got up around seven. Anyway, nothing happened much yesterday, and in JM's parrtahy.

Okay, let's start with JM's. We arrived there at around seven, seven thirty. Buuut, JM wasn't even there! Funee. He was in town. Weird, noh? He's got a party and he's in town...=p anyway. We arrived the same time as Belle, Reiyuh and Gin. We headed to Strikes, and his family members were there...Riannuh, the mum [[she knows my name?? haha]], mar...co?, mark? i dunno eh...haha basta, one of his brothers, and of course, ARJAAHY!!! Rj's so gawdarned cute, mahn!! aw...walking around looking so innocent...üü

JM followed a little later and so did his dad. we ate. There was pizza, salad, sushi, lasagna, checkehn. Tae. Cheskuh, Belle, Reiyuh and I all started off with a bit of salad...Belle finished first and waited for us...Reiyuh was next...daya eh! She used a gawdarned spoon to eat her salad! HAHAHA!! I finished next and..Cheska? She never finished. Just kidding. She took long pa cuz she was talking to sina Ruhm. Gin naman wouldn't eat salad so chibog kagad. After the salad phase, the three of us waited 'till *ehem* was out of the buffet table so that Belle would stand up. ;) Then i wanted to get Maki, but noooooo. gawdahmned pinggoy finished it all...)= anyway...then sina Miel, Tasha and Saybel came. And after a while, Rebuh came as well...

We had a little ice cream and us four, Reiyuh, Belle, Gin and I went to the Karaoke room to find Cheskuh there. So we all started singing hero. Theeen, dumating na sila pinggoy so wala na. They started being unfair nanaman. "No, it's our turn!!! Kanina pa kayo!!" We'd only sung one song compared to their at least eight. So, we gave up and left the room...

I bugged Muhng to tell me who his crush was...and guess who it was!? Well...keep guessing because you won't find out from me...=p I'm Muhng's friend. Nakanamampooch. Hahaha!

After a few more karaoke songs, couples began to disappear. Garren and Deanne, Rebuh and Dave, Jed and Tasha, Cheskuh and JM, Ram and Saybel [[they weren't gone but they were together]] and so on...I went back to the karaoke room and nico garcia was singing...my ged..."bubuka ang bulaklak, dadaan ang reyna..boom tiyaya, boom tiyaya, boom tiyaya boom..." hahaha laftrip muhn...oh yeah, when i asked belilay if she missed *ehem* [[di ba halata?]] she was like, "yup. Plenty much." Aw!!

Then JM blew his cake and some people considered bowling...after an hour or two, the party ended and some people headed home and others, to starbux.

Happy Birthday, JM. Hope you had fun!üü Next. What happened to me yesterday? Well, i went to town pretty early because Dr. Biyo, the dudette who got her own planet, had a talk and i was an usherette...we usherettes, my sister, jacqui, gigay, jus, laurs and i, had fries for breakfast until sheena decided to go back to McDo and get a longanisa meal. Lauren didn't decline. She bought a sausage McMuffin whose sausage she didn't eat because she was on a diet, and got sandwiches for Jacqui and Jus.

Jica Cuisia was kawawa mahn. She peeled over a thousand hotdogs with some others just to feed the savage teachers. Just kidding. Teachers lang. Oh yeah, Mrs. Montero, Ms. Bailon, Ms. Rebollido, Mrs. Batoy, Mrs. Legaspi and Ms. Pineda were there! Heeheehee.

Afterward, we had lunch in Banana Leaf Curry House. Okay kung sa okay. But, i didn't enjoy it much...

I went home after lunch with Dr. Biyo and the other FIAT members, including usherettes. I didn't bother attending the Father's Day anymore because everybody'd just be hangin' around with their boiis...

I bummed my sore little butt out and got tired enough to sleep. So, hence, here i am.

I'm going to visit my grammuh for lunch todae. I'm bored once again.

moOd:
eargasm: ATB's the summer

Yours Truly,
r a i i s u h (=™

Posted at 08:09 am by panteh
are high  

2.4.2005
Belated Happy Birthday, JM!

Dear Blogdrive,

Just finished taking a bath...i'm waiting for Cheska to come because we're on our way to Jay-emuh's parrtahy!! (=

Oh yeah! Last wednesday, something happened. I marveled at Cassie's IPod because i wanted one, too. Buuuuut...i know i'd never get one, so i'd just have to deal with. Haha, anyway...i borrowed her IPod and started listening to it while we were preparing for our Lit Get-together. I helped at the registration table while listening to the IPod. Issa was listening to Rica's IPod behind me. Theeeeen...PINEDA CAME OUT!!! Then it went like this:

*Door opened, and i didn't care.*
Issa: *hides Rica's IPod and whispers to me* Hide that.
Me: *Pulls the earphone* Whaa?
Issa: hide it!
Pineda: What are you doing?
Me: *mutters* oh, shit.
Pineda: Do you want me to confiscate that?
Me: No, miss. *starts putting away the IPod*
Pineda: *gets it then walks away*

PUSANG SAWSAW!!! NAGTANONG PA SIYA!!!

So, I was scared shitless cuz i was badshot na with Cassie's mom. So, i had to get it back. But i hated Pineda and she hated me back. And..i'm scared of her, too...=p So, Cass said that if her parents ask, she'd just tell them she's charging. So...yeah...Come friday, i still didn't have the guts...but Cass said that she needed it by the weekend or her parents would know. So, yeah...

I had a dental appointment during study period and on my way, guess who i saw? YABYABIN. she got so pissed with me. Then...

Ms. Yabs: "You know, raeesa *she calls me that* i don't know what to do anymore. i've told you about the reply slips and your parents now know. but who's IPod is that?"
Me: Uh, not mine, Ms.
Ms. Yabs: I know it's not yours because if it were, you'd have begged for it a long time ago.
Me: *thinks: it's just been two days, dammit.* Yes, Ms.
Ms. Yabs: What do you mean, Yes ms?
Me: I mean, No, Ms.
Ms. Yabs: Ano?
Me: Nevermind.
Ms. Yabs: You talk to Ms. Pineda. Now. She leaves at four.
Me: Yes, Ms.
Ms. Yabs: Sige na. *leaves*

Whew! So, after my dental, i had to face the second scariest [[after ms. yabs]] MS. PINEDA. I went to her office and asked for it back. I was sermonized and was told that Cassie should be the one to get it back, as she's not supposed to have brought it to school because "it had no relation whatsoever to school."

Then, there ended the weekend. Now, i'm still waiting...=p

Yours Truly,
p a n t y (=

Oh yeah, Belated Happy Birthday, JM!! (=

Posted at 06:35 pm by panteh
are high  

1.31.2005
Forget it...just forget it all...

Dear Blogdrive,

It's been a month, and all i've done is watch. can i stand it for the more to come? hopefully, i would.

I just can't believe that this is the way i've been acting towards both. indifferent and ignorant. But that's nothing i should allow myself to feel...is it?

I don't know...i feel like i've been so stupid all along, you know? i mean...after all, all i can do now is watch...watch until the feeling's gone...watch until i can make it...watch 'till it's over...

tayna naman.

p a n t y (=

mood: aggravated
eargasm: aircon

Posted at 07:49 pm by panteh
are high  

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